I used to think I was a quitter

My whole life, I believed I was born for something great, but whenever people talked about dreams and hopes, I had none. That emptiness depressed me. I felt like my future was blank, so I decided to search for it. I tried business.. selling cookies, tofu, small chops.. but the moment it got hard, I quit. I tried content creation but couldn't find my rhythm.

I started selling tea spices alongside content creation, but I also stopped. I even ventured into UI/UX design. At some point, I got back into writing, but it felt like a chore. When I was about to graduate, writing my final paper, I told myself I needed something lucrative because I couldn't see myself working as a reporter or doing anything in mass communication. Then, as God would have it, after my exams I picked up writing again, and this time, I wrote a book that became successful. More successful than I ever imagined. It even fetched me money I didn't expect. That joy pushed me to keep writing.

But even then, I knew something was missing.

Writing alone wasn't the full picture. So I started searching within myself again: What else can I do? Content creation? PR?Something else? I was confused. I begged Allah for focus, for a dream to hold on to. And guess what? A few months later, the pieces started coming together. Slowly at first, blurry like a puzzle in the dark. But eventually, the full picture appeared. And the dream I discovered was so big, it scared me. It was so overwhelming I thought I could never achieve it. But then I reminded myself: the same Allah who gave me the dream will help me fulfill it.

Even my degree the one I once thought was useless, turned out to be part of the plan.

And I realized this was truly my calling because, for the first time in my life, I didn't feel like quitting. No matter how hard it gets, I keep pushing. Thinking about it doesn't drain me it excites me. It gives me butterflies. The harder it becomes, the harder I fight, unlike everything else I tried before. So the truth is, I was never a quitter. Why? Because I never stopped searching for my dream. Even when it was tough, I kept looking until I finally found it. And it's bigger than everything I've ever tried. It's worth every ounce of stress. Now I understand the saying, "Great things takes time." Allah didn't give me this dream earlier because He wanted me to value it. He gave it to me at the perfect time. And even though the road is rough, I believe He will help me achieve it, because I am exactly where I need to be. So if you're out there feeling lost or stuck, don't give up. Keep searching. I promise you, you will find that one thing that sparks your soul and gives you purpose.

My advice? Don't settle for what makes you miserable. Don't choose a career that kills your happiness. Make the sacrifices, take the tough steps, and in the end, it will all be worth it.